life is never fair is it..

dear Santa
i promise to be really good, sitting still and waiting.
please send me all my xxxxx s cascading down the chimney this december..
(and make them last.)

i'm falling in you're falling out

so nette and i bought TWO bags each for 90bucks! right?
just a lil harmless self deceit.


take me away

had always secretly harnessed longings to be packed into a bag and hide away in times of need.. just to feel safe for a while..
yea i know i'm a tad weird.

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on replay; Displaced, Azure Ray.

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yay, Meredith moved on
like, finally!

whitewashed.

finally caught up with my sleepppp
eyebags were ghastly and weighing down my sight and the world along with it
ohkay hyperbole.

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weds @ phuture..
initial boredom
to fab drinks + fab music = outofstate highness = dancing like a 'filmsy' nut.
to supreme sleepiness after all that euphoria and psychedupstate and falling all over the place (secretly~~ falling apart -smashing pumpkins HAHA)
shouldve gone to find sammiekinss/ mambo for more sanity.

butttt
THANKS NETTEY PALSXZz AND PEARLLL..
reallyreally.
HUIYI DON'T TALK TO ME (kidding. pls brush up braiding skills <3 you nonetheless)



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shoppingg w stephcheong's DA BOMB!
(: (say goodbye to gullible days)

dadeedoo+dinah : yess so jln kayu-ing or??

AND
EXCITING EIGHTEEN REE Y
im sorry about last night.. ._.
(yes i insist your fave colour is still purple)

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sch's a blurr.
f-tupstate cannot be contained anymore
i hate my grades and myself
it's just hopeless pointless meaningless empty void
but still,
hit the books, wendy.
nomoretears johnson&johnson, yz?

Her favorite flower is daffodils

(newly won over Tim Burton fan)
i loved Big Fish for its inversions

factual and imaginative (there's truth in imagination..so there!)
tickling and heartwarming (yes, teary..)
beautiful and ugly
..


all spinning an entire web of morals unfolding bit by bit
i think its worth every single one of its nominations.. and more!
(:

or maybe its just really my kind of story.

p.s Josephine (played by Jessica Lange) and Sandra (Alison Lohman) are the luckiest girls in the world..

Josephine: You never told me how your parents met.
Will Bloom: They met at Auburn.
Josephine: But what about the details? How they fell in love. The cirus, the war - you never told me any of that.
Will Bloom: That's because most of it never happened.
Josephine: But it's romantic.
Will Bloom: Mmm...
Josephine: Mmm, what?
Will Bloom: Well, I know better than to argue romance with a French woman.

Senior Ed Bloom: You are in for a surprise.
Will Bloom: Am I?
Senior Ed Bloom: Havin' a kid changes everything. There's burping, the midnight feeding, and the changing.
Will Bloom: You do any of that?
Senior Ed Bloom: No But I hear it's terrible. Then you spend years trying to corrupt and mislead this child, fill his head with nonsense, and still it turns out perfectly fine.
Will Bloom: You think I'm up for it?
Senior Ed Bloom: You learned from the best.

Will Bloom: We have to take Glenville to avoid the church traffic because the damn church people drive too slow.

Josephine: I'd like to take your picture.
Senior Ed Bloom: Oh, you don't need a picture. Just look up "handsome" in the dictionary.

Young Ed Bloom: Has it ever occurred to you that maybe you're not too big? That maybe this place is just too small?

Young Ed Bloom: There are some fish that cannot be caught. It's not that they're faster or stronger than other fish. They're just touched by something extra.

Young Ed Bloom: There's a time when a man needs to fight and a time when he needs to accept that his destiny's lost, the ship has sailed and that only a fool will continue. The truth is I've always been a fool.

Young Ed Bloom: It was that night I discovered that most things you consider evil or wicked are simply lonely, and lacking in the social niceties.

Sandra Bloom: You don't even know me.
Young Ed Bloom: I have the rest of my life to find out.

Ed Bloom (Age 10): I was thinking about death and all. About seeing how you're gonna die. I mean, on one hand, if dying was all you thought about, it could kind of screw you up. But it could kind of help you, couldn't it? Because you'd know that everything else you can survive.



righto..enough quotes to flood the post. am off. hope tonight will be fun!

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the epitome of change..
never anymore.

hormones
(otherwise pronounced as her-er-mo)




rainy dayss..
try not ter get pensive with uncoorperative mood yes

visits to town, bugis, haji, plaza sing, minds cafe,
off to woodlands and secretsxzs supplies (surprise) tmrw
plusplus a hopeful squeeze of zouk/mos

Ying the company
(and shopping bags of goodiess!)

oh books, foe-of-the-mo, long-forgotten!





arent these the cutestt..
my kind of eye candy (:

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pretty please..

but stars are blind.

(yes i secretly think her addictive debut track is nice.)

daily activities = pretence of me ceasing to exist as an a-level student
WHAT AM I DOING!!

but distressed state aside,
omg discoveries and reuinions with pals = (:
moreee please!
impending need to fulfill insatiable desire to watch movies (p square (pretty please haha) &prada soon! click+the breakup were good..but archetypal of their genre..) and ogle at cute stuff.
and the tv is beckoning me to every 'primetime' slot possible whenever im home. (jss! :)
+i really need to check out what's that boardgaming thing all about..stop calling me swak, stephcheong!

i might as well wave goodbye (-sings steadman) to university.

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But here she is, all mine, trying her best to give me all that she can. How could I ever hurt her?
But I didnt' understand then. That a person can, just by living, damage another human being beyond repair.
Y murakami
(thanks c &sam for recommendation)

yes i'm reading novels when my eyes should really be glued to statistics and economics and sexual innuendos in Chaucer.

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random.

fireworks.




rapture.






sigh. i really miss my tooth :'c
what a world of difference that lil hole makes. (and this is the cue for us to lapse into the theme of significance, physical presence vs void, tangible vs intangible ok monologue stop being lit psycho stream of consciousness writing?)


WHY? this is really random. dug it up from a long time ago. shocks, nette?


haha wting dont scream. we need to take better shots at shanghai06/07!! :D


another randomnity, missed! seeyou later dsf!

bye all
i need make myself a more productive being.


(haha dinah!)

the bold and the ugly.

(haven't done this in a long time so please pardon me, should any stray, lost birds fly this way by accident)

this is the last time.
that i will say these words
i remember the first time

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are we bein selfish by wishin things the way we want them to be such that
if everyth worked out the way we wanted
and the people we wanted to stay with us stayed,
they would be deprived of the happier larks they are right now?
to tug at someones arm (many peoples arms then) and say 'im sorry i now kno how i've screwed it up' and 'pretty please stay and remember the way things were..
should end.

i guess we could all try to find our own happiness then.
till another time -

i used to think you could be my Unsuperficial
till secrets ate it all up and all that was left was the acrid taste of what insanely feels like betrayal (bcos it shouldnt be so) compounded in marshmellows..if only you knew but does it matter if it wasnt sustainable from the very first bite

i should learn to stop wearing my heart on my sleeve,
but then i would be trying to read myself like how im trying to read all of them (/us)


nothing lasts,
stop the naivety if i could.